Tuesday, July 20, 2010

My Revolution(s)

As previously mentioned I was in Toronto this past weekend from Thursday to Monday and while I was there I probably consumed 6 lattes-- FUCK REAL COFFEE! As well, as some of you may know, I was having some serious mixed feelings about leaving New Liskeard. I think after this weekend, sadly, I am ready to leave. I AM A CITY GIRL and that is hard to deny.

It was this past weekend a year ago, where I found out that I was hired for my internship in New Liskeard for North Eastern Ontario Soil and Crop. And it was this past weekend a year ago, I sat (drunk) in the outdoor washroom at MUZIK (club) balling my eyes out about leaving my friends and my life behind. I forgot about my Toronto Life while living here. The longer I stayed away from Toronto, the less I missed it; it is hard to miss something you have vacant memories off. Not to mention, when I was leaving to come here I was several thousand dollars in debt (no more)and was struggling to keep a dead relationship a life (bye bye asshole ex boyfried). I also tried to avoid going home because when I did go home I realized how much I do love the city. This past weekend was my final straw. I love Toronto and I miss it. I love my friends, my family etc..... and malls.

However, it is funny what can change in a year. I am finally starting to feel like my 'normal' me again. Once again, if you know me, you know I have been through my life piles of shit and then some in the past three years. Though life is not perfect, nor will it ever me, there are no longer emotional waves, filled with more lows then highs. I feel NORMAL and content with my life, minus this whole job situation. But like I said, things cannot be perfect.

I have started to lose weight and feel good about myself and my body image again. As well, I think I am ready to be in a relationship again. I am done dicking around with guys... haha or am I?

SONG OF THE DAY:



P.S. My interview on Friday was decent.. I am horrible at guessing how interviews went as of several months ago.

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Food Baby

I am currently sitting in my mother's living room in Toronto which includes the joys of AC. Let me tell you, its a hell of a lot more humind here then it is up north. I am also so full of food that I now bare a food baby; the only kind of baby I am interested in having at this point in time!

We went out for dinner to this cafe like place which is own by a gay couple; not that is really all the important! I ate everything and then some (the leftovers on my mother's plate) which was then followed by mango cheesecake--> mangoes seem to be a common theme in my life currently (mango DIET soda, mango salsa, mango sauce, mango cheesecake). Not to mention, momsies and I split a bottle of wine. LOVE WINE.

My mommy then made a fabulous suggestion in going to one of my favourite city locations, Starbucks to have latte( grande skinny light whip ice white mocha). I do realize they are located everywhere but the closest one to me in the north is in Sudbury which is 3 hours away. BOO!

Tomorrow I have an interview--yay. UGH. I hate looking for a job, it's depressing, demoralizing, and a total confidence squisher. SOMEONE, ANYONE HIRE ME FOR FUCK SAKES! And at least, please, short list me. I would feel a lot better if I was just short listed for something I actually WANT to do. A three month contract is not that appealing. BLAH. WHATEVER.

Desperatly trying not to stress.

SONG OF THE DAY:

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Northen Adventure Part 1.5

This post a little late however, it does not mean that a great was had by all on FRIDAY JULY 9, 2010!

On this day, Ms. Duke and I went on a lovely northern adventure part 1.5 ( we don't speak of part 1*), where we travelled to Elk Lake Eco Center for lunch. However, our lunch date quickly and easily turned into a full day event filled with girly cocktails, hot tubs, docks and the Montreal River (which may or may be full of leaches--still under debate).

For lunch we both had delicious home made fish and chips, along with homemade (of course) tartar sauce. To be honest, I am normally very against tartar sauce because I have a fear of mayonnaise-there is just something about raw eggs and oil mixed together that seems a little unnatural. However, this day I was feeling a bit daring and indulged,correction, heavily indulged in the tartar sauce and it ROCKED. Not to mention, the fish and chips were a perfect lunch portion size and were light but very filling-- I cleared my plate and I even ate the celery sticks. In addition, a girls day date, is not complete without fruity, pink cocktails. Thus, as soon as we arrived, we instantly requested a set of girly cocktails and what was created for us, was divine. My guess of the mystery fruity cocktail, can simply be an adult Shirley temple with a pineapple twist.

After completing our lunch, we moved onto the patio, with a refreshed glass of fruity girl cocktails, where we chat chitted with the director (Pam) of Elk Lake Resource Center. We soon then had tour of the facility.

Elk Lake Eco Center sports 6 cabins, with 6 bedrooms each one. They all have a walk out patio attached to them. The cabins also bare a kitchenette and two fully stalked bathrooms.

After the tour, we were fortunate enough to be allowed to use the rest of facilities on the grounds. Our first stop was the hot tub, and of course, this was accompanied by another fruity girly cocktail. Pam, graciously let us borrow fluffy brown towels to use after we were finished with our 'water sport activities'( I use the words sport and activities lightly--we really just sat on our asses). Due to the fact, that it was 30 plus degrees on Friday, the hot tub became WAY TOO HOT, and we ventured down to the waterfront.

Elk Lake Resource Center, has a enormous dock located on the Montreal River!!! I was brave, and dove off the dock at one point; no big deal.

Ms. Duke and I both blopped ourselves into the Montreal River to rinse the chlorine off. We both feared that we may get attacked by leaches and had no salt available to defend ourselves, BUT fortunately, the leaches decided not to strike war against us. We then spent the rest of the day lounging and tanning (burning) on the dock.

OVERALL... it was an awesome and if you ever have the opportunity to visit the center, I highly recommend it. Not just for the scenery but more for the FAB creative beverages and food (yum).

*part 1 was a super fun day (Ms. Duke and I always have fun days) but quickly became far too complicated to go into with any great detail

SONG OF THE DAY:

Monday, July 12, 2010

The Things I know For Sure

1. People never change
2. Things can always be worse
3. Don't run but conquer
4. High heals are always a good option (they make any outfit dressy and make your legs look long and fit)
5. Do something for yourself everyday
6. You can never laugh too much
7. Don't take life or yourself too seriously
8. Life is what happens while you are planning it
9. Eyes are always beautiful after a good cry.. so don't fear it
10. It's better to have a few great friends then lots of acquaintances
11. Baked goods are always good.. have you ever had a bad baked good?? (exception: raisins)
12. Don't ever cry over someone who wouldn't cry over you (thank-you Lauren Conrad-- yes I watch the Hills)
13. Can never go wrong with a pink sparkly cocktail
14. Make your own rules
15. Dresses generally always make you feel pretty


What do you know for sure??

SONG OF THE DAY:

the truthe is...

I am sooooooooooooooooooooo over guys... common theme to all girls lives.

I have recently been a bit of a bad girl and have been dating a couple of different guys. Which frankly, is very difficult to do in a small town when everyone seems to know everyone and everyone's business. However, I did manage to keep my sneaky boy activities under wraps. BUT, recently, I went from stringing a long 3 males to 0: I guess that is karma for you.

Part of this is, was and still is, my fear to commit. I don't want to commit. Commitment scares me. So dating different people keeps options open. Plus, the next person you date should always be a step up from your previous person; never date under. Unfortunately I am starting to realize I sort of want to commit. I like love. I love love. I WANT TO BE IN LOVE MODE.. well not so much... maybe more of a just a hint of love mode can sparkle down onto my life.

HERE IS MY ISSUE THOUGH:

I think we all have a certain type of person we are attracted to. Mine=ASSHOLES. I love them. They are my male weakness. Frankly it doesn't matter what form they come in, as long as they are an asshole--I fall for them and usually hard. And assholes will fuck you over EVERYTIME... in theory ( I am still hoping my magic Asshole is out there somewhere who will be my desired match)

I suppose you can argue the point that all GUYS ARE ASSHOLES. However they aren't, there are nice ones. The nice ones bore me (yawn). I recently dated a nice guy (he was one of the 3) but I couldn't bring myself to like like him. HE WAS A NICE GUY and also a HORRIBLE KISSER*

I thought I found a nice one (who didn't make me want to stab myself in my eye), which was a nice change from my usual scattered dating history. However, his true asshole self came out and it sucks to be strung along. In particular, when they want to continue to string you along until something better pops up. SO CUT. GOOD-BYE.

I made a promise to myself probably 6 months ago that I would never ever let a guy walk all over me or manipulate me again. I hate breaking promises (it makes you look a shitty person) and the last person one should ever let down, is themselves.

* I think it was more the fact that he was a horrible kisser. I would try to avoid kissing. I did all the moves; the head turn, berrying your own head in his neck, pulling away, etc, etc etc. It's just not good when your teeth smack on more then one occasion.

Saturday, July 10, 2010

yum.. sublime

It's summer time and there is just something about sublime... enjoy my song of the day

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

I love President's Choice (and Walmart)

DISCLAIMER: I apologize now for this random rant--it's hot out and I am a bit delerious.


I straight up love President's Choice products, they are truly delecious and amazing.




My new favourite product of theirs is diet Mango soda pop.... yum. I love mangos, I love soda, I LOVE 5 calories!! I realize,this product may not be that new to some of you but I stopped shopping at the local independent (aka Chartrands) because Walmart came storming in with a food area. Walmart is cheap, I make fuck all, and that is a perfect winning combination for me. As well, if we had to get real, Walmart has way better selction of fruits and vedge (then Chartrands..not all Walmarts) and I am all about the fruits and vedge (fiber).




NOT TO MENTION, sometimes, at the right time, the bakery area has samples. Now, these aren't shitty little samples, they are half off full size cupcake samples!!! Totally kicks any craving you have for sweets and you didn't have to spend a dime and in my mind, I saved some calories.




However, Walmart does not have President Choice products and more importantly Blue Menu products. Blue menu products are a great assistance and a much healthier 'fast food' option. And let's face it, Canada does not have as many "healthier" grocery store products as the States, besides the basics of salads and chicken or chicken and salads. Now.. if there were only some way to combine the two?? ( IMPOSSIBLE)